Last night in the shower I found myself thinking, "I haven't been in the Word today...and I really don't want to either..." Then I realized how little I love God and desire to be with Him. And my heart broke. I knew the one thing I needed the most then was God's Word for sure. I journaled a little before and I marveled that I should ever be an object of God's love, that He should ever want to adopt me as a child. I can totally relate with Kellie as she jokingly said a few weeks ago, "God, are you ever sad that you chose me?"
I reflected on how faithless I am, and how faithful God is. He is daily pursuing me and often times I must confess that I am a rebellious, running child. It made me think of the story of Hosea. I hadn't read it in quite a while so I spent some time last night reading through it. In Chapter 3 God tells Hosea to go purchase his wife [again] out of whoredome... and I stopped and thought... Hosea did not just take that unworthy woman as his own wife... That is amazing in itself. But he sacrificed for her! It cost him money. 15 shekels of silver and about a homer and a lethek of barley. Now, I'm not sure exactly how much that is in today's money...but it was something. And then the beauty of it... That is Christ! That is me! Christ did not just take me [and the rest of the Church], in our unworthiness and unfaithfulness as His bride... That alone is an unthinkable measure of love... But he sacrificed his life and gave His all! Infinite, unmeasurable love!! That the holy Lamb, pure white, perfectly spotless and righteous should ever die for a lowly worm such as us, fallen and rebellious, seeking after the idols of our hearts...
Romans 5:7,8
7Very rarely will anyone die for a righteous man, though for a good man someone might possibly dare to die.8But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.
Talk about humbling.
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